Death… It’s something that scares me more then anything else. I know it will happen in time as it’s apart of life. I want to be ready to go, but I also know that when it’s my time, it’s my time.
It used to be that I was afraid of dying alone, afraid that I wouldn’t be found for days, weeks or even months later. I have my wonderful wife now, and I understand it can happen at any minute while she is at work and technically that would be alone for me. However now I am more afraid of leaving her alone in this life. I can’t imagine the hurt and pain she would go through.
As she said to me on our wedding day as apart of her vows “You bring me balance, you are my rock.” How can I be that rock without being here on this planet by her side in a physical form?
With all that being said, why am I so irresponsible when it comes to taking my medication?
I need to make sure that I take my blood pressure medication every day. I always start off doing well. And then I slack off by forgetting to take them one day, then another day and so on. Or maybe the prescription runs out and there isn’t any refills left. I know I can be very lazy at times and just hate calling the doctor to make an appointment that won’t be for another month or two.
I’m bringing this up, because I’ve been having headaches and dizzy spells this week. And you guess it, that brings on the “what if’s”. Yep anxiety comes into play and that equals stress. And you know what they say about stress, stress is the silent killer, so once again why am I so irresponsible.
So I pulled out my home BP monitor on Tuesday morning and it shows a crazy high number. I lay down for a bit, slowly sit up rest and take it again. Yep it’s still crazy high. I called my Dr’s office, they asked if I could come in for a BP check. I went in and as you can guess it was high, no shocker there. They made me an appointment for the 21st of July. They said they were unable to prescribe me more medication until then, because it had been a while since I have seen my Doctor. But a month from now really? A lot of good that will do me. I guess they figure I have gone this long without them, why not another month. Anyhow they told me I could come in as much as I would like so I can get my BP checked. Yesterday I go in to get it checked, it was still high but not as high as early in the week. I told her I had an appointment to see the doctor in a month. She asked if I would like a 30 day supply until then. “Why yes and thank you,” I replied…
Isn’t it funny how you can get such different results from different people. So I have my medication now, and I will do my best to keep taking it, and keep my appointment in a month to get it refilled and keep getting it refilled.
Are you irresponsible in any way when it comes to your health?
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